As a teenager growing up, I always wanted to be someone who knew who they were as a person and didn’t need any guy or sense of acceptance to determine who I was. That being said, when I was 13 or 14 years old I really couldn’t help but feel the pressure of life on my shoulders that gets thrust upon most teenage girls. You have to be “skinny,” “effortlessly pretty,” “witty,” “intelligent,” “stylish,” etc., and the list goes on and on. It wasn’t until I met Leslie that my perspective really changed on this matter. Here was this really pretty, tall, skinny woman that found her self of entitlement in God and used the skills she had to help women. I found myself going to the homeless outreach she does every week, giving flowers on Valentine’s Day to women on the street, and overall looking to God for my sense of purpose. It’s so interesting to think, that no matter what family your born into, you have the opportunity as a living, breathing human being to make a difference in someone else’s life.
When I was in the Philippines, I met so many people that had barely any money to their name, but they impacted other people still so drastically with the words of encouragement they spoke, the wisdom they had, and their sense of being. That being said, I feel like the most important attribute I can share with someone else is 1) not being afraid to be who God made you, and 2) Finding your value in God. Those two things have shaped me.
Yet, I still find myself time and time again looking back on past mistakes I’ve made and ways I’m procrastinating and allowing myself to let that voice again inside my head again tell me, “You’ll never be good enough.” Not in the same ways I did when I was 13 or 14 years old, but now in my jobs, college, and even friends.
That being said, it’s so important to remember that even though life isn’t always fair. Bad things sometimes happen to good people, and things don’t always turn out the way we want them to, God is still there.